The quirks of going down the Rabbit hole
Life was giving me a hint, that it is all a dream. As I was beginning to discover, this secret, my world turned upside down. At first, I felt like Alice, who goes down the Rabbit hole, drinks a potion, and becomes gigantically tall. She regrets the choice she made, but soon realises that it was needed, to see the world from an aerial view. So, I felt like I was on cloud 9. My vibration went through the roof. My true self had come out of nowhere, and I felt alive. I could feel everything around me so strongly, that I couldn’t help but have empathy for everyone, even my enemies.
After some time, the sensitivity got extremely heightened, and I could not bear the pain, until I collapsed. It was like a spiritual stroke. I felt like I died and went into a deep coma.
When I woke up again, I was not the same. I had now shrunk. I was back as my old self. An amalgamation of the impressions of all the people I had met, live with and imagined. It was devastating. This was a form of grief, I was not ready to receive.
God works in mysterious ways
Gradually, I got adjusted to my new size, and began accepting it as a blessing in disguise. I wondered, if I had done something wrong, and God was trying to teach me a lesson. When I looked back, it dawned upon me, that I had been quite arrogant. As I hadn’t earned my ‘high status’, I saw myself as superior than everyone else. My ego loved the delusion of being “awakened” or “spiritual”, until the bubble burst. Now, a new chapter had begun.
You cannot truly empathise with others, unless you have walked in their shoes.
Although I had tripped over my own leg, I began to realise how this was no less than a reincarnation. You can die and be reborn a million times, in the same life. My so-called problems are no longer significant, as I see the world outside my ivory tower. Each living being is fighting their own battle. Some do it openly, some secretly, and few rare ones who are not aware.
There is no salvation without struggle.
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